The Entry

I've been writing, n I'm at my 1000th page
Because defining u takes as much time as it does space
There's jus not enough words or ways
For me to say not jus wat u mean
But how much-- you're so many things
In the hand of cards life dealt me, you're the queen
The thorn-less rose in the garden of love I walked through
Youre the soft touch my sore mind, body, n soul approves
You're the explorer that beat the task of searchin me
My audience when I feel the urge to sing
Even though I can't, you're my number one fan
Like you're my first choice every time I wanna slow dance
You're the eighth day of my week, a time for romance
That ends wit me holdin you like this paper holds my words
All through the nite, til the page is ready to turn
And bring a new day, a new page to think wit
Defining u is hard, and I don't think I'll ever complete it
Because wit every passin second, wat u mean to me increases.

KG

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Redefined

Loyalty. My lifestyle. My habit.
Not a choice for me, it's more automatic
Many throw hints but I never really catch them
All the thoughts of u, the memories we made, keep me distracted
Open. Nothing can stop this emotion's flowin
No person can block it, no flaw can slow it
Thats why we can talk about everything between the floor of the ocean
Around the fire our souls glow with to the stars the sky's holdin
Valiant. Theres no greater reason for battlin
My priorities shift because i have to win
Pride leaves the list, n ur well being moves up, past my life
Because I'm all for sacrifice
Endless. It's sewed into my pulse, I'm feelin it
That beat was almost nonexistent til u started remixin it
Something symphonic, tho I can't always make sense of it
The only way this track will change is if death switches it
KG

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Defining

L is for lonely
A soul searching for a sense of belonging
Wanting, by definition, to cancel itself out
Hoping out won't forever be without
The rest
O is for the obvious at it's sentimental best
A quest that ended way before it began
When for the first time 2 hearts held hands
V... V of for valid
Certainty, assurance and truth were checked on the ballad
When the body voted to understand
The auora, the miracle, under phenomenon that was happenin
E is for the emotion
Exponentially growing from the depths of my soul
Into a rose
The other half will forever hold
KG

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ring the bell

I banged on the dents from the inside out wit fists full of pride
For the bruises, forgiveness of self was applied
When I took a break between the bells to make sure I was revived
Cuz I been waitin in my corner for the next round, n its time
The fight's never been fair, exactly wat I had expected
But there are a few jabs I had no business acceptin
Uppercuts that should've never connected
N hooks that brought a pop that was beyond my perception
Few were deserved, some came while I was protectin
Many landed jus because I was present
I asked for many methods, used all except my own
Now I got this uninvited restlessness in my bones
And this logic that's huntin for a cure for this ill temper
A conscience nearly blind to the sympathy that flickers
In a darkness that seems to have no endin
And, in the center of it all, a redeemed heart shining wit a peerless crimson

KG

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Mirage

Wat is it when wats in the mirror is unfamiliar
A sign of declining eyes screamin for you to heal em
A broken mind havin trouble believin
Or the truth steppin out of concealment
After doin hard time, perhaps a decade plus
Is it returnin to fill in the space success ain't take up
I'm a leader, but to society's rules, I did plenty of following
Wit sights tainted by failures n contradicting philosophies
Constantly havin me mixed about who I should be...
I wanted to prove chivalry survived amidst the game love became
N now I don't kno wat should change
My direction?
Which side Im restin?
Im aware theres no room for handlin of the heart gone senseless
In the hour n minute hands that caress our existence
Where I'm the sore thumb, standin out
Waitin for a remedied kiss of identity from circumstance's mouth

KG

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the shake off

Can't curse the mirror for the reflection its revealin

It's not the fault of the echoing glass for the image appearin

For whatever problem there is wit wat you're seein

Is a sign that wats on the inside of you n outside of you are disagreein

I heard before the heart n mind speak different languages

One is wrong, one is right-- sometimes its hard to say which is which

Like doin the wrong thing, tho its feelin right

Or when you're ready to give in, but stay in and fight

And when your mission to stand out is accomplished

But you step in your cold-shouldered solitude thinkin 'i aint want this'

Wit half-way scaled mountains of dreams in your squinted vision

That makes your escape from reality a prison

I'm confined by my own ambitions, not as a form of discipline

But a recess in a world more believable than this one is

Where my identity is whatever craving inhabit my genius

Regardless the 6 foot perplexity the mirror has me seein

KG

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I mean--

In your dictionary, wats my definition
Sometimes i wonder if its there, or if its gone missin
Held hostage by a heartbroken history
At the ransom of your misery
At times distortin the joy you be envisioning
N rearranging the words my words when youre istening
To trick you into believin this isnt me
That Im jus another one of those thiefs
Who scratched the pain on the beliefs
The pages you tore out n trashed cuz to erase em or keep em
Made you sad, discouraged you to understand
I wanna be the hero of your heart, not jus your man
Tho im feelin like a villain out to prove my guiltlessness
While Im starin at this blank space, knowin you will fill it in
Dwellin in your affections' dictionary, I kno where I am
But does my meaning take up a page or jus a paragraph-- KG

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